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Post by Mairi on Jun 1, 2004 9:30:56 GMT -5
In your search for a donor have you considered another vampire or even a therian?
Most kin I know of are more than willing to help out family in their time of need. And as much as many feel that feeding from another vampire is self defeating it can be done.
The donating vamp needs to feed from their donor or by an outside method prior to donating to the vamp in need. This way the donor vamp isnt' depleting their own energy.
Think about it..........would solve your problems until a donor can be found.
Mairi
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Post by AlloriaDark on Nov 21, 2004 11:33:46 GMT -5
I'm sure it could work nicely for some. However, I have a hard time asking anyone to donate. Somehow I feel like the person is going to look at me like I'm making some sort of sleazy pass at them. I think it comes down to low self esteem on my part, and that can really be hard to get past. That feeling that you are unworthy of anyones attention or consideration. I have had a friend, who is a vamp offer to donate to me several times now and I can never bring myself to accept his offer no matter how much I want to. It's like subconsciously I feel he has ulterior motives or is trying to trick me even though I know he dosen't and isn't. He's a great guy. Anyone have any thoughts?
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Post by Mairi on Nov 21, 2004 17:24:24 GMT -5
I hestitate to ask anyone to donate mostly because of how it makes me indebted to them. I realize how silly that sounds because if they would just allow it I could make the experience worthwhile for them with out having to go anywhere near the sexual side of it. But there is where most want to go. And even if I weren't in a monogamous relationship I would still not trade sex for feeding.
Mairi
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Post by AcaciaPhoenix on Nov 21, 2004 22:19:48 GMT -5
I myself don't seek out "payment" for donating to anyone. All that I ask is that they be a friend to me. I give freely with no strings attached save friendship.
*hugs* Acacia
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Post by WingedWolfPsion on Jan 11, 2005 1:26:33 GMT -5
Alloria, one thing that's PAINFULLY clear is that your emotional reactions sound terribly like my own so many years ago...and unfortunately, I don't have any good news about that.
You're going to have to decide what it is you want to do...you can't be vampyr, and not feed. It'll beat you down and break you, if you try. I can't think of anything worse. If you're going to be something, embrace it wholeheartedly. If it's not want you want, then try to find a way out...sometimes, there is one, no matter what the common consensus has to say about it. But don't be a victim of yourself...you have to take charge and make a plan.
That may mean accepting your friend's offer, even if it paralyzes you with fear and embarrassment. Is it really your friend's motives that concern you, or is that you feel like you're submitting....that you've lost a battle if you accept?
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Post by AlloriaDark on Jan 11, 2005 4:54:17 GMT -5
I understand what you're saying even if I don't agree 100%. And I"m not dragging myself down too much as I've been working on my psi abilities and gaining some energy that way. It doesn't satisfy me as well as blood does but it keeps me from getting too sick. Somehow, I just don't think there's an easy out for me. I can't choose to not be what I am. It would be the same as saying I was going to choose to no longer be caucasian, or no longer have brown eyes. Sure I can get a tan and wear colored contacts but underneath I'd still be the same person, I would just have hidden some of my traits. Thanks for your reply though. AD
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Post by WingedWolfPsion on Jan 11, 2005 15:15:01 GMT -5
Yes, I know, the community believes it's all innate, genetic even. Nothing I say is going to change that at this point.
It's possible for sangs to get by feeding on energy, but you have to be able to tap core energy, rather than the outer part of a person's energy field. It's much denser, "heavier", and can be a lot more difficult to pull.
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