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Post by AcaciaPhoenix on Nov 9, 2004 12:29:13 GMT -5
What was your awakening like? Did it hurt at all? What did you see, feel, smell, etc.? How did you know as to what you were awakening as?
*hugs* Acacia
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Kiara
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Post by Kiara on Nov 24, 2004 0:52:08 GMT -5
At the time, I thought I was a vampire because someone told me I was. One night, researching wedding gowns, I suddenly felt obsessed with the elven styles I was seeing. It wasn't a reaction to LOTR because I had seen it long ago, and besides feeling happy when the elves were on screen, I had no reaction. I realized my deep love of nature and earth, my fear of blood-drinking, and my hatred of power struggles was very non-vampire and very elven. It felt exactly like my first Awakening - like my world was being turned upside down, but this time, the other half of my world fell into place. I was finally complete, besides being nearly alone in a society that is so antithetical to my soul. Sometimes it emotionally hurts because I can't go Home, where ever that is. I have a deep Longing thhat sometimes gets overwhelming and leaves me nearly sick with sadness. I realized also that things that felt natural to me - polyamory, bisexuality, a deep, deep reverence and fraternity with the earth and nature - were common in the elvish community. Anyway - long enough? Kiara
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Post by Elix on Sept 2, 2005 14:39:31 GMT -5
How was my awakening?? You want a novel? LOL... Long, tiring, at times it hurt, loney, confusing, jarring. Take puberty and multiply it by 100, then take that feeling and go through it while in puberty!!! LOL, but I'd do it all again! Elix I believe this is post #38
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Post by silverxtwilight on Jun 25, 2006 18:56:52 GMT -5
I have to agree with featherfoot. My awakening was just the realization. I do feel kind of alone too. There aren't many elven at all where I live and the ones that are here aren't the kind that get along with mine. I have noone really to teach me about what I am,or about what I can do or how to do it, true alot of the knowledge is engrained in me and instinct is a definate but I have to figure these things all out on my own, and it's difficult. It's probally easier for those who have someone to teach them to adjust to who and what they are, but there is no pain involved. I do wish, almost constantly, to meet others like me, or go back home, where I really come from. There are so many vampires where I come from but few elves, if any. So I kind of just recently started noticing the looks I get from the vampires when I pass, and yes I can sense they are vampires, mostly because I'm very close to one, others tend to keep their distance. As for the change in senses... I've always been very sensitive, smells and sounds that other people don't even notice have always been pronounced for me, some to the point where they make me sick or give me headaches. I think the main reason it wasn't to jarring for me was that I could always feel there was something different about me, that I never quite fit in. I'd always notice weird things happening around me and Nothing ever felt like coincidence. I'd be able to sense things other people couldn't and know things they didn't, and I've always believed in otherkin and the supernatural. So for me learning that I'm an elf just seemed so natural. It was soothing, and aweing, it just made sense.
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Shadowdancer
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~may the beauty of the night caress you like the arms of a lover~
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Post by Shadowdancer on Jul 9, 2006 20:52:18 GMT -5
I was sad and alone some physical pain
~Shadowdancer~
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Post by cathrea on Jan 25, 2007 1:09:02 GMT -5
I did not awaken as such... I was always this way. Though I didn't realize my family's placement within the Sidhe until I was Taken to Seelie Court at age 13. That was a shock as I though we were just average... turns out my Grandfather is above average.
Namarie, Cathrea
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